Chat

I struggle when it comes to talking with people. Not speaking from a pulpit or platform, although the time spent on the toilet before hand tells a different tale. But more so on a social, new acquaintance, just met you way.
I don't mean to be this way, i don't want to be so, i dream of being like my friend Swade who will turn and speak sense (or nonsense) to anyone who happens to be around him at the time.

Will this ever change?
Will my tongue ever loosen?
Will brain and mouth ever connect without detour?
Will general chat with strangers or almost strangers ever get easier?

If it seems that i'm not talkative if we ever meet, it's not that i'm grumpy or that i don't want to talk. It's more to do with a lifelong battle with being socially inept. I'm sorry - but i will try, and keep trying.