Jacob Samuel Boal was born to us last year on 12th April (07). But prior to Jacob my wife and I had another child, though sadly the child miscarried and never entered this world or our arms.
Recently in thinking of this, I pondered how; if he or she had been born, that we'd have two children now. But that would not be the case! If the first child had been born, there is no question about it - Jacob would not! We would have put off having more kids for a while and 'that' sperm would not have got to 'that' egg, hence the unique code that became Jake would not have been joined and I would never have known this little boy!
So I've found myself praising God for the whole picture, not that I don't have sorrow that I never held my other child, but I praise God because He knows best and had a better plan. He took one child to Himself so that Jacob might be born - Barbara and I now have two kids - One who God took, and Jacob who God brought through the womb and into the world.
I'm reminded of Acts17:25-28
""Nor is He worshiped with men's hands, as though He needed anything, since He gives to all life, breath, and all things. "And He has made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined their preappointed times and the boundaries of their dwellings, "so that they should seek the Lord, in the hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us; "for in Him we live and move and have our being"
God gives life, breath and all things, it is He who decides our lifetimes and the years we live in and even the area we live in which brings me to the words of Job;
"The LORD gives and the LORD takes away; Blessed be the name of the LORD."
So, although there are times when I weep with sorrow over my unborn child I can still trust and rejoice in God's sovereignty over this and delight in the son with whom He worked this to bless us with!